Monday, June 2, 2008
Why Can't I Talk to Jay
Didn't want to do this but, this is what I've been going through. Why can't I talk to Jay and why can't I hear him. This is a block I have. I could talk to Grandma Margaret and she answered every time, haven't been visiting her that much lately, maybe that is what I should do and it just came to me that shoot she is there with Jay and taking care of things and busy. Man, when he called on the phone I could talk all night and listen to him and make me laugh everytime. Why can't I do it now, every day I think of him and everyone who loved him. My days are not always sad, heh I was raised to get it together and I do, we Lambs have things to get done and we do. Jay, I Love You......your busy now taking care of the love of your life Pam and Stacey and Mindy and Casey and Taylor and Conner and Caleb and Squirmy Wormy and Mom and Dad and Vern and Jug. But, when you have time just poke me in the ribs and say hi Sis. Love you
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Just because they don't answer doesn't mean they don't hear you.... I know Jay can hear you, like you said he's just busy. :) Wish I could give you a big hug right now! Love you!
I feel your pain. It hard to express in words but Jay is with you and watching over you. Jug was looking for some kind of sign from Jay and Jug saw Jay the day we went to the funeral home for visitation. Jay said it was going to be ok. This helped Jug because he knows Jay is with you guys. This is the first time I have shared this. Jug told me that night. Tears are running down my check and my class is wondering what is going on. Pam and the kids are so strong. Remember his smile, his jokes and his phone calls from his cell phone. He always called driving down the road. Talk to Jay because he is listening. I miss you.
Love Teresa
Hey Bev,
I don't know if Jay hears me or not. I talk to him all the time. Then I also tell God to tell him incase he doesn't hear me. But I think he does. I make up my own rules anyway. We always talk to each other about the funny things that he always said and did. He was so awesome. He was the silliest dad ever. He was the best husband too. Even fighting was fun with him. No matter how mad I was he would always make me laugh. I miss him with every breath I take. But I keep telling myself, this is just temporary. I will see him again. I feel like he is watching over us. He loved you so much. So do I. Pam
I was thinking of you this morning and I remembered that after Megan passed away Kelli and I would have dreams of her often. I would tell my mom and one day she just broke down and said she couldn't even dream of Megan... it broke her heart and mine too. She felt blocked like you said.We all want that one more chance to talk to the person we lost. But I agree with Teresa and Pam we can talk to them all the time. The do hear us, I know it, even if we don't hear them or see a sign. They are with us all time and it is good for you to share your life and feelings with them as often as you need to. Love you Bev!!!!!!!
Hey Bev. Saw your blog and comments. Thought I'd say hello from Rudy. :) You know my, Dad he'd forget things alot, small things all the time. We'd be driving down the road and he'd have been to the destination a million of times, but he'd miss a turn. Not b/c he'd forgot where he was going but b/c he was just thinking to hard about something. His mind was always going. And I don't think he really ever forgot or ignored anyone he'd incountered. I know you are on his mind all the time and he loves you very much. He just has been cruising down all these new roads and missed alot of turns b/c he is thinking extra hard about us all. Just try to imgaine him walking in the room saying one of his smart comments he'd always say. ~Sometimes I will say something my dad used to say. just because he used to say it...and I makes me feel good just to say it. "What's happenin Maynard?" or "Shit me, I'm your favorite turd." Those might help. :) I love you Auntie BEV - Mindy
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